Why did I choose this university programme?

 

A lot of years ago, there was a child who was good at school, someday her dad moves to another city and time after all the family moves. That was the first time this little girl traveled on a plane and the first time she thought about the far away future and a job. Of course that girl is me, and I wanted to be a flight-attendant, who would think that i will end studying architecture? That was a real plot twist.

I remember thinking about being also a translator when I was a child, but I was in 9th grade when I first start taking my future seriously, that year I realize that I’m good at science and I really enjoyed the classes, and from there I focused in careers related to that. Even so I also like arts, but I knew I wouldn't have enjoyed it like a job, just a hobby.

My timeline of careers I consider was like: Psychology, forensic, medicine on the way of psychiatric, astronomy, medical technology and the last one was pharmacology. I also considered laws just because I like discussions, but I’m awful at history so it was an ephemeral thought. Those years I remember feeling really sure about my focus.

The last year of school, I had a vocational crisis, I realized that I didn't see myself working and studying none of that and then I accepted that it was just for obligation, because I was in that science elective I thought I have to study something related but it wasn't true, I convince myself that was for me but maybe it was not.

So I started thinking, what do I like? I liked science, but not too much to study medicine for almost 10 years, I always feel interested about death, but I was not going to be a serial killer of course, criminalistics maybe? too much exercise to be part of the PDI and I didn't really like that institution. Astronomy? I was good at physics but it's so boring. I also like math but no thanks. I didn't want a career which is always the same things, without innovation, something I will be following some kind of manual and everything is the same. I wanted something that lets me do unique things, to use my creativity. but with a purpose and I wanted to study everything but nothing convinces me at 100% so I think, maybe there's a career that has something I like, but also, in the job i will always learn different things. And after investigating a lot of information, asks people who knows more and seen meetings I realize that being creative is one of my best qualities and math are so fun, that's why I choose architecture, it has everything I wanted.

I'm a really obsessive person about careers, jobs, and studies so before start studying I knew everything I have and even things irrelevant. This university was my first choice, there was a time I considered catholic university, but mmm no, that's not for me. honestly, I wasn't in love of the faculty and other universities have curriculum maps more interesting but this was one of the best in the ranking and the easier to arrive, so I finally choose it. 

And here I’m, in my second online semester wanting to die, sleeping 2 hours a week, but doing my best. I'm not going to lie, I question myself about my decision because I’m used to have excellent grades in everything and having sometimes bad grades makes me feel really frustrate and sad, but this is university life and I have to accept that 4 is like a 7 here and that's the most important.